Flip sideYou know I love you,Flip side by Laazu
and there is nothing I can do about that.
No matter how hard I try
I won’t be able to convince myself otherwise.
My mind has no say in it.
You might think that this is a burden to me, that I should move on.
But you’ve got it all wrong.
I’d rather be in love with you and have it be unrequited, than to be with anybody else.
Every time I catch you doing the simple things you do,
when you throw your shy smile,
when you greet people you barely know with radiant eyes,
when you apologize with a smirk for things that weren’t wrong,
my heart tells me “You love this girl”.
It makes me happy,
because in that moment I know,
that my heart is to be trusted.
ConfessionI never had a problem with being alone.In fact I often enjoy my company more than others’.Confession by Laazu
People nowadays have generally lost something that is essential to me, mostly innocence and kindness.
In the outside world I am like a chameleon, successfully adapting to everything that is being thrown at me and ignoring everything that bothers me.
Hearing my friends, even my best, talk about how they just want to fuck this girl once and that girl once sickens me more than it should.
Falling in love is a rare occasion in my life and the two instances of real love that struck me changed my personality to a point of no return.
I have a special gift that allows me to read people, not what they think, that would be scary, but after I have been talking to a person for a while I can sense a colour of emotion around them.
This has proven to be rather accurate at times, often resulting in hours of conversation with people that came at me smiling from cheek to cheek but reeked of frustration, sadne
I was broken when I met her,
Damaged when I fell in love.
She patched up my heart in that fateful night,
Cuddled up against my chest, breathing sighs of satisfaction,
Running her hand up and down my face, smiling, eyes closed,
The smell of her hair, the warmth of her body,
Scars healed, wounds sealed, hope grew and color returned,
A moment destined for infinity.
Everything is etched in my brain, she is ubiquitus.
There is no going back, not for me.
Her situation is complicated,
Bound by unwritten laws of decency,
Forced to refuse me.
Is she in love?
With me ?
Is it killing me ?
Uncertainty eating at me from the inside,
Guts spiked with thorns, tearing each other apart.
The suspense is depriving me off everything,
I feel ruined.
Prepared to fall I patiently kill the time,
Everything feels cloudy, dim, empty.
Would falling precede getting back up this time ?